well one of the things i think makes me me, is im hardheaded. people think im full of shit when i say this. but i seem to be able to handle pain a different way then most people. From as a young lad watching my father, and from many years of football and matial arts, i got trained to take major pain and block it out to a point. i see and hear people get hurt and right from the get go they cant do anything cause there hurt. didnt see it happen, but with my dad after he crushed his hand. what i saw was a man who went on with everday life like nothing had happen.so when i get asked doctors what my pain scale is i dont know what to say.
they ask me right now pain its to be honset feels like a 2, but i know thats wrong. after i had brain surgery wasnt in alot of pain. people say cause they had you dopped uped i was for a little, but not long.
i have had done things to my body, that post people would be hooked on pain pills. i do hurt and hurt all the time. but i will not let any physical pain stop me from living.
in martial arts i have taken some good shots from some powerful people. but i keep wanting to know and feel more.
my biggest pain is that i lost my father when i was 13. he never got to see me grow up. my mother raised me the best she could, even though from her best efforts i never grew up.
I started growing up July 8th 1999, the day i gave meagan a back rub that went for 4 hours off and on.
Emotional i think i still got a long way to go, Meagans working on that.
We right now are going through some ruff issues, with this recent surery.
My emotion really start going the right way 4 years ago, when Nathan our nephew was born, right now he is smarter than most adults. earler this year went in to even more focus when sophia came in to the picture. Havent got to really get to know her yet, but i think with my sister amy as her mom shes going to know more about me lol.
dad always showed me never back down, when your hurt you move forward. meagan has showed me its ok to admit your human everynow and then.
Im haveing some inspiration my recovery. i see wife with out fail(unless we have something going on) go to the gym to make herself a better person for her. i love her more than live right now.
some of my closest inpirational people.
chuck connor with you being sober for so long that dedication is something i have always wanted
doni connor your love for you family, i have seen no other.
miranda and brian ackley from the times we have been together, yall are some of the best young parents i have ever seen
amy dekle and jason miller, again great exapmple of good solid parents, jason you love for amy makes me pround to hopefully call you brother one day.
mom. i know i have been a pain, but without getting to emotional im proud your my mom.
meagan dekle, from day one you have left me in amazement. you inspire me to be a better man. once im fully recovered we will both shock the world lol.
last but not least. my dad. your where taken away from me right when i needed ya. but as im growing older, i try to be like you, i know you wernt perfect, but even as a young boy i saw things that i still try to copy. no one will ever be my dad but do have a couple that are nice stand ins, One you know(uncle bill) and i think one you would have a ball with(chuck)
Now that i have gotten all this down. im going to try and sleep really hard with the stitches. but im so happy that christmas is comeing and we get to go home.
you know you really fined your friends out when something like this happens.
smile, laugh, live and love
David Wayne Dekle
David I'm so proud of you. The only way for someone to grow straight and strong as a person is to set a goal, work to achieve it, and once you do achieve it, set another goal, and work to achieve that. You seem to have taken a long walk down the road toward your goal and I'm very, very proud.
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